I AM A MOM......................

[lulubellnyc]

THERE WERE SOME COMPLICATIONS. I LOST CONSCIOUSNESS DURING THE DELIVERY (I HAD INTERNAL BLEEDING AND MY BLOOD PRESSURE DROPPED) AND THE BABY HAD TO BE PULLED OUT OF ME. I LOST A LOT OF BLOOD. THEY CHASED HUBBY OUT OF THE DELIVERY ROOM AND WENT TO WORK ON ME.

I DID NOT WAKE UP TILL HOURS LATER. HUBBY WAS VERY TRAUMATIZED, BUT THE BABY AND I ARE FINE, IF A LITTLE WORSE FOR THE WEAR. LEAVE IT TO ME TO BE AWAKE FOR ALL THE LABOR AND CONTRACTIONS, BUT MISS THE ACTUAL BIRTH.

ANDREW CHARLES WAS BORN JANUARY 25, 2010 AT 2:37 AM
8 POUNDS 8 OUNCES
21 INCHES LONG

I WON’T BE POSTING ANY PICTURES HERE AT ALL (PRIVACY REASONS BECAUSE OF HUBBY’S JOB), BUT IF ANY FRIENDS WANT TO EMAIL ME AT LULUBELLNYC@COMCAST.NET, I’LL BE HAPPY TO SEND A PIC OR TWO. REMEMBER TO TELL ME YOUR LJ NAME SO I KNOW WHO YOU ARE.
IT WILL BE IN A FEW WEEKS THOUGH. BECAUSE BABY ANDREW HAS BRUISES FROM BEING PULLED OUT OF ME AND I LOOK LIKE A TRAIN WRECK, AND I AM WAY TOO VAIN TO HAVE YOU SEE US LIKE THIS.

WE CAME HOME FROM THE HOSPITAL YESTERDAY AND MY MOM IN LAW AND HUBBY ARE HOVERING OVER THE 2 OF US. BENNY IS ACTING FUNNY. I’M NOT SURE IF HE IS JEALOUS OR JUST MISSED ME, BUT HE WON’T LET ME OUT OF HIS SIGHT AND KEEPS HIS PAW RESTING ON ME IN A POSSESSIVE WAY.

I’M JUST GLAD TO BE HOME AND TRYING TO SORT OUT ALL MY FEELINGS. MOST OF YOU ARE SUCH GOOD WRITERS AND CAN EXPRESS YOURSELVES SO BEAUTIFLY BUT I AM FRUSTRATED BY MY INABILITY TO EXPRESS MYSELF. I FEEL SAD THAT MY PARENTS AREN’T HERE, BUT CONNECTED TO MY MOM IN A WAY I NEVER WAS BEFORE. I THINK I CAN UNDERSTAND HER LOVE FOR ME NOW. IT’S LIKE A WHOLE NEW AREA OF YOUR HEART OPENS UP. I JUST HOLD HIM AND STARE AT HIM. HE KNOWS I’M HIS MOM, HE FOLLOWS MY VOICE IF SOMEONE ELSE IS HOLDING HIM AND I AM TALKING. IT’S LIKE THE FIRST TIME YOU FALL IN LOVE AND YOU ARE HYPER AWARE OF THAT PERSON, THEIR BREATHING, THEIR SMELL, WHEN THEY ARE IN THE ROOM ETC. I CAN’T EXPRESS IT ANY BETTER THAN THAT.

PHYSICALLY, I LOOK LIKE HELL. EVERY PART OF MY BODY HURTS AND/OR IS LEAKING. I HAVE TO SIT ON A RUBBER DONUT.

ANDREW MAY BE AN ONLY CHILD.

Comments

[vandelsira.livejournal.com]

I'm so happy for you!!My email is vandecira@yahoo.com.br.Send me some pic when you feel better.Don't worry:i haved the same feelings about my baby birth.I haved my baby alone, my husband was out of town to work and was very complicated.But the good news:This confused will go away.I love you my friend and i'm very happy for you.Anything you need,write me.

[lulubellnyc.livejournal.com]

Thanks sweetie - of course, I'll send you pics and thanks for the card.

[sweetnessarose.livejournal.com]

CONGRATULATIONS!!!

I'm so sorry the birth was so hard D: Andrew sounds like a little angel. ♥

[lulubellnyc.livejournal.com]

Hubby had it worse than I did, I slept through the bad parts.

Thanks for the good wishes.

[volgivagant.livejournal.com]

Congratulations! And hello to Andrew! Here´s to hoping you´ll be the happiest little family. :)

[lulubellnyc.livejournal.com]

Thanks, it's weird to think of the changes this will bring to our lives.

[thecowboycliche.livejournal.com]

Congratulations sweetie!! Glad you're ok.. giving birth sounds terrifying LOL D:

[lulubellnyc.livejournal.com]

Thanks. It defintely is scary, but worth it.

[rum-inspector.livejournal.com]

Congratulations!!!!

[lulubellnyc.livejournal.com]

Thanks sweetie.

[joyful-molly.livejournal.com]

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!! Congratulations to you and your hubs, and hello and welcome, junior! :-D

So glad you're up again, even if it's on a donut. My best wishes to all of you!

[lulubellnyc.livejournal.com]

Oh Miss Molly this week has been a whirlwind.

Thanks for your good wishes.

[aussiemozzie.livejournal.com]

Lulubell! Aw, I'm soooo happy for you. I think you did a wonderful job of describing how you feel. I bet it's sooo magical.

I'm really sorry it was so tough though. I think my husband will be lucky to get one child out of me whenever I get married. Ha ha. I hope you recover quickly and can get some rest.

You are sooo adorable. I wish happiness and healthiness for you and baby Andrew! :)

[lulubellnyc.livejournal.com]

They say you forget the trauma of childbirth. I don't believe that.

Thanks for your good wishes.

[misscam.livejournal.com]

Congratulations!

[lulubellnyc.livejournal.com]

Thanks sweetie.

Still waiting for more Lloyd/Olivia by the way.
No pressure.

[not-nahrrington.livejournal.com]

Oh my god, congratulations!! Hope you feel better soon, and aww at your possessive dog :) And tell little Andrew, welcome to the world!

[lulubellnyc.livejournal.com]

Benny's mellowing out now and let's me go to the bathroom alone. He doesn't know what to make of the baby.

[atlantis2-04.livejournal.com]

it sounds...well...something to be scared! i mean!...i cant even imagine what you and your hubby must had feel in that moment!!
I am so glad you and the baby Andrew are ok!!!

Congratulations lulu!!!!!! i am not a mom but i know many and i can tell how i see them....they adore their childs...some of them changed their life for their bbs!...and a bb in the house is always like sun in springtime and well...its awesome!
so i wish the best to you and your family!

[lulubellnyc.livejournal.com]

No matter what you do, a baby changes your life. I think it's your decision how much and in what way. I am determined not to be one of those women who lose themselves in motherhood but one who keeps her own identity.

[auroraloo.livejournal.com]

Congratuations New Mom!
It's really nice that your already feeling those bonding feelings with baby Andrew.
Best Wishes for your whole family!

[lulubellnyc.livejournal.com]

It's just so strange to look into his eyes and know he was inside of you and know that you will know and love this person for the rest of your life.

Thanks for the good wishes.

[orpsgod.livejournal.com]

Congratulations lulu, and welcome little Andrew! I know from experience, four kids worth of experience, you will soon be back up and around and things will be great, and you will have this wonderful little package of joy that at least for the first six or eight years will think you are the greatest thing on earth, after that they still think you are great they just start to question a bit whether you really are the 'be all end all' they've thought you were after all lol. Congratulations again, and I wish all three of you the best! :)

[lulubellnyc.livejournal.com]

4 kids WOW.
I know I'll be coming to you for advice.

[leila-data.livejournal.com]

Congratulations, Lulu! :)

[lulubellnyc.livejournal.com]

Thanks sweetie. It's good to see you here, I've missed you.

[leila-data.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I'm sorry I keep disappearing, I don't mean to.

[lulubellnyc.livejournal.com]

As long as you check in now and then. ;D

[smithkingsley.livejournal.com]

Congratulations! I'm in awe of you because I think having a baby is a really brave thing to do. Love to you both and feel better soon sweetie. *hugs*

[lulubellnyc.livejournal.com]

Thanks sweetie.
I think it's more hopeful than brave.
Maybe my little guy will be able to make a difference in the world.

[smithkingsley.livejournal.com]

I hope he does and I know you'll make a wonderful mother. It's lovely what you said about being so aware of him. Oh, and my baby sister's birthday (not so much a baby anymore but she's the closest thing to a child that I have) is also January 25th. :-)

[wicked-jade.livejournal.com]

Congratulations, to you and the hubby! And hello to little Andrew. :) I think you expressed your feelings quite well...maybe that's why all moms want their kids to have children of their own eventually...that feeling of connection.

[lulubellnyc.livejournal.com]

You are one of the writers I was talking about. You say things and I see and feel them. I can't do that, I write more like a reporter (just the facts please) and can't get the emotions out.

Thanks for the good wishes sweetie.

How's everything with you?

[wicked-jade.livejournal.com]

Everything's fine here. I'm trying to work on something, and I'm not gonna say what because everytime I promise a project it's like an automatic jinx. :) It's kind of ironic what you said about my writing (which is some of the highest praise I've ever had the pleasure to get, so thank you. That's the sort of reaction every writer strives for, I think.) Because the last few months I've felt like everything I've attempted to write has been sort of empty and soulless. I've made lots of attempts, but I'm not happy with any of them so far.

I forgot to mention it earlier, but I'd love to see the baby pictures. :) phoenixsong@aim.com is my address.

[lulubellnyc.livejournal.com]

You are definitely on my list for pics. ;D

[ladynorrie.livejournal.com]

That's is simply wonderful news Lulu; thank you very much for sharing with us what you went through and how you are now.

It must have been very hard for you, especially for the first time; I am so glad that the worst part is over and you can enjoy your beautiful new baby - hopefully just the three of you soon! :-)

[lulubellnyc.livejournal.com]

If you are alluding to my in laws, they are here for 2 more weeks. But they are so enthralled with their grandson and grateful to me that they are bending over backwards to be nice.

[kira-iras.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you are both ok :) Congratulation and all my best wishes for the next steps :)

[lulubellnyc.livejournal.com]

Thanks sweetie.

I want to relax and enjoy the journey.

[saturnine3.livejournal.com]

Congrats!! I'm so happy for you. I know how you've waited for this moment. YES!! please email me your baby pic - siriuss3@hotmail.com.. I'd love to see him. .. well, If you don't mind showing him to me =D

*hugs* I'm so happy for you, so proud of you.

[lulubellnyc.livejournal.com]

Thanks sweetie. Of course, I'll send you pics.

[snowydragon1776.livejournal.com]

YAY for baby.

I am so sorry this was such a hard birthing.

I am glad you are okay if still recovering.

*hugs*

[lulubellnyc.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I'm OK. If only I could sleep.

[june7rose.livejournal.com]

I missed this somehow, I was checking everyday, I'm sorry. Anyway, thank god you're okay. Your poor hubby, my heart goes out to him, I can only imagine having that happen to someone you love and feeling completely helpless. I would love to have pics of you and baby Andrew when the time is right. Sounds like you both were very lucky and thank goodness you're okay. I hope you're allowed to take some kind of pain medication (with nursing, I don't know). And what you wrote is better than any poem, no one could have captured what's in your heart like that except you.

[lulubellnyc.livejournal.com]

There you are.

Of course we're sending pictures to Auntie June. Not now though, I'm a mess. And baby Andrew looks like he's been through the mill.

I just need to get to sleep and NO medication. sigh.

[june7rose.livejournal.com]

Oh lord not even an aspirin? Unless I'm mistaken, a newborn has to be fed every two hours? Good luck with the sleep thing. I love that you're still you. Most mothers would never say anything remotely negative about their baby to the point that you hear things like, "he is perfect, a perfect god", hearing you say he looks like he's been through the mill is hilarious refreshing. Just don't get one of those baby monitors which lets you watch the baby. I knew someone who got one of those and stared at the screen all night. LOL

[lulubellnyc.livejournal.com]

I can see how some women lose themselves in motherhood. Everyone encourages it and it would be easy to do what people expect, but my mom(my hero) continued to lead her own life with 4 kids and a job. I just hope I can do it as well as she did.

The first 3 months of the baby's life are the most important for their immune system and other important stuff so my doctor recommends breast feeding for at least that time. I can do that. My sister in law told me about this party she went to where the host was still breast feeding her son at age 3. That I CANNOT do.

[dnique729.livejournal.com]

CONGRATS!!!!!!!
Yay! He's here! He's here!
Andrew Charles. Very lovely that you went traditional.
Very happy and thankful that you came out alright despite the difficulty during birth.

[lulubellnyc.livejournal.com]

We're both good thanks. We named him after my brother.